{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

*loves:

*loathes:
BOREDOM

sisi
sheer
xying
bik
cheryo
jocie
SGN

 

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it was an awkward meeting. there were no words between us, just a simple "HI" when i reached there. i had expected him to be there, coz after all, it was guili's birthday and she had invited the whole TJC team, though she didn't mention his name to me. i talked to the rest of the guys, but not him. he seemed to be avoiding me as well. it was real awkward. we were sitting in a circle and he was right beside me. i could tell he was trying to avoid my eyes, as much as i was trying to avoid his. not even a single word tonite, for the past 1 1/2 hrs. i talked to zh, rb, wj but not him. he seemed to respond to the rest other than me also. perhaps i'm rather disappointed also. maybe if he took the initiative to talk to me i might just respond. but being the stubborn gal i am, i simply refused to give in first. when we were about to leave, we were all talking to guili and it became so obvious he just didn't want to talk to me. i know i was wrong, very wrong in the past. maybe he was expecting me to talk to him first. i dunno. he's moved house, like what he told me last year. now i really wanna talk to him, and be like before, like the friends we used to be, but i just can't bring myself to make the first move.

i really really want to sms him right now, and ask him "How Are You?". why can't i just do it? maybe he's happily attached now and i shouldn't bother him. i'm just feeling so confused. maybe i should wait for next sem, when we all meet up with the rest again. perhaps i'll find the courage then. now i realise escapism isn't a solution. or maybe the gd cry on phuture night dat wed washed away all my worst fears.

11:27 PM
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