{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

*loves:

*loathes:
BOREDOM

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i've been so busy this past week that i'm so tired. work is fun, though very busy, and it'll be worse in time to come. i've been going out almost everyday this week after work, but i like! i've been shopping too much that i can't shop for the next month, but who cares! i won't have the time anyway. haha.

but working at raffles place is really money draining. we eat so much, we spend more on fine dining, though the people there are more fun coz they're like younger. so let's hope and pray my pay will be increased when my contract is extended!

7:53 PM
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i'm giving ourselves a few more months, til then when you're not so stressed and busy with schoolwork. at least i'm not so inconsiderate so as to add on to your problems when you have important things to do, unlike you, who caused me to miss my first A in NUS and an unhappy 22nd birthday, when i did absolutely nothing wrong.

i don't see things as a trade-in just because i said i did not tell you i'm home because you also don't do the same. it's like if you don't do the same thing to me, i won't feel like doing the same to you. it's human behaviour. why can't the engineers understand what human behaviour is instead of using such mathematical terms to explain things.

exasperated. it's strange, when i find that i do not shed any tear even on the day i told him i wanted out.

9:31 AM
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it's over.

after 1 year 5 months 13 days. i've put a full stop to it. something which i used to hold so dear to my heart, something which i used to view as a godsend.

i decided it's time to end it all, better early than never.

no more waiting the whole day for that single call or sms, which don't come most of the time.
no more waiting for that single apology for wronging me.
no more getting shouted at for no apparent reason.
no more having to tolerate all those accusations.
no more having to deal with "i just don't like it".
no more having to understand without being told anything.
no more being accused of starting a fight when i'm not the one who started it.
no more being referred to as "friend".

one should not assume the other party knows something, just because he/she has been with you for quite some time. if you don't say, do not expect the other party to understand. we're not trained to read people's minds coz we're all made differently.

now it's time for you to reflect on your own doings, instead of accusing me for starting a fight just because i'm not happy you went out with your friends yesterday. i'm not. i have no issues with you going out with them. totally. i'm not that petty, even towards your faculty friends.

hanging up on me was not a gentlemanly gesture. i certainly do not like it, so do you.

telling me you've been facing alot of stress these few months when i told you it's over doesn't solve the problem. the fact is, you never told me, so do not expect me to understand something which i was not told of. i'm not god.

repeated warnings to you, you refused to heed, so do not blame me for doing this the hard way.

11:47 PM
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the date is finalised, i'm finally leaving on the 22nd. i hope my new environment will prove to be much much better.

10:27 PM
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Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

4:23 PM
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i met this lovely lady with this lovely smile. though her hair has turned all grey, her voice is filled with warmth, and a sense of familarity. a pair of lovely eyes is what sets her apart from the rest. as she related her story of her husband, i could sense the agony and feel it in her eyes. to lose one's dearest, it must be real traumatic. she was stranded alone, since they did not have any kids. now she mends this foodstall together with her divorced brother. she reaches the market at 6.30am without fail, she works til 9.30pm everyday without fail. her strength to move on despite all odds makes me admire her.

i suppose what i'll miss about this place, will be this lovely lady who sells meatballs at the hawker centre. her casual talks with us when she's free, her lovely smile, and pretty eyes. she's just such a motherly figure.

10:39 PM
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it seems like a dream, but it isn't.

i think i'm falling sick soon, but not coz of my tooth extraction, coz it's sore throat. haha.

haiz.

4:38 PM
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sometimes, as the relationship grows, we tend to get a little tired, such that we decide to ignore what the other party does 'wrong' to piss us off. i prefer to interprete it in a way that we're able to accept what the other party is.

12:14 AM
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I DID IT! YAY!

12:52 PM
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