{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

*loves:

*loathes:
BOREDOM

sisi
sheer
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SGN

 

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confused. totally.

i've got a feeling something feels not-so-right. could it be more than just that?

oh well, i don't wanna know, and i don't wish to. perhaps i'm feeling too contented? or maybe i just don't wish to search anymore.

9:10 PM
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i don't have the habit of blogging nowadays. when i reach home, i find it even a torture to switch on the pc to surf the net when i've been facing the pc the whole day in the office. most of the time, i just tiend to lie around, watch tv, or start thinking. i think about alot of things, big and small, important and unimportant. at the end of the day, i just want to relax, sit down and have some time for myself, i don't wish to be around people coz i need time away from them. even when i switch on my msn, i don't really msn people most of the time. perhaps in this stressful society, i've learnt how precious each and every bit of time is to me. at the workplace, people talk about adult issues, the responsibilites and decisions each and us have to face, about marriage, about work (yes, even the jokes are revolved around work). somehow, nobody knows what exactly is innocence, no one says brainless things just to liven up the atmosphere anymore. we need to meet up to the expectations of people around us. we need to rack our brains to ensure our survival, and we start to think we might not be that good and capable we used to think we were. why? there are always better players out there. maybe it's working life, but i realised that i can't remember all the simple and basic things which i could remember so clearly before. my memory is failing me, i can't remember the tasks i need to do. why? all my brain cells are spent on thinking and racking my brains at work. it makes me wonder if i'm a balloon that is being blown to its maximum, and it will burst anytime. i start to realise i can be happy on my own, reading a book or watching tv by myself, coz it's the time when i don't feel any pressure. and i start to feel, that i've been neglecting too many simple things in life, which i shouldn't have.

maybe it's the nostalgic rain, or maybe it's just me.

on a sidenote: i've passed my advance theory! yippee!

11:17 PM
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i've neglected this blog of late. but i've got too many decisions, too many things on my mind to think about.

i've still got to take my driving, buy my insurance, and rewrite my resume.

working, i'm enjoying it. i've got a bunch of really nice colleagues and generous boss, other than the excessive amount of money spent on food, i seem to pretty enjoy it. the TROPS dept is offering a position, and boss asks us if we're interested. it seems like only i am, coz the location is at Tampines. oh well. but the working hours will be bad, like til 10pm almost everyday. sigh.

but i guess rite now i have to focus on passing my theory test first. i hope everything falls into place, neatly.

9:32 PM
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