{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

*loves:

*loathes:
BOREDOM

sisi
sheer
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SGN

 

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what does love mean to you?

do you ever ask yourself that? or ever asked before?

is it a feeling just to fill up the emptiness in your life, or is it something which makes you feel on top of the world? what exactly is love? is it an exchange? where u reciprocate another's feelings towards you?

why do people get hurt so much by it? to an extent that they might not forget for life. bad experiences cast a dark shadow over them, not allowing them to run away from it. they get stuck, unable to fend for themselves, and they can't retaliate. they try to hide, but the shadow seems to be able to have this miraculous ability to go wherever they hide. perhaps coz of the shadow that's been cast over them, they find ways to hide which results in them hurting themselves even more.

sometimes it makes me wonder, why do i fall in love? why do i allow myself to, when i know i don't really need a guy. but i guess he makes me feel safe and secure, which explains why i'm loving him more each and everyday.

thinking about the meaning of getting attached, why do people get attached? people do so for a variety of reasons, which i think one of the main reasons is they think they have found someone who really cares for them. but sadly there tends to be some people who get into a relationship just because they feel lonely, and they want someone just coz people around them all have someone special. call it peer pressure? oh well. i guess peer pressure just makes people do silly stuff.

somehow talking things out makes us feel so much better. the fear within me has subsided. with your assurance, i'm safe..

11:40 PM
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You are Brown Sheep, who is modest and have a gentle atmosphere.
You tend to express self confidence and calmness.
You also have guts not to give up on things so easily.
You are not shy towards men too.
You like to take care of the others, and can not turn down favors.
You are rather emotional, and optimistic.
This leads you in making hasty decisions and overly optimistic outlook.
You tend to take on things without thinking about your capability, and suffer with burden afterwards.
You should think twice before taking on favors.
When you can't cope with the work you took on, it is you that people regard as a person who lacks perspective.
You have your own sense of values.
You try to seek values in other people, and will start a relationship on trust.
But you tend to be stubborn, and have great many likes and dislikes.
You also hate being instructed, and decisions made by other people.
You have observing eyes towards the others, and your natural sense of instinct and decisions are well developed.
You are also a good negotiator.
You are kind to those who work under you, and will not forget to show consideration and generosity.
But you can be hard and difficult to those above you.
They will regard you as being a rebellious person.
You are a proud person, and do not like to lose.
Nevertheless, you are very sociable and intelligent. You will not end up being an ordinary housewife.
You are a bold and passionate person.

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6:43 PM
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i'm mourning for the loss of my financial accounting paper. i guess i'll have to take 6 modules next sem, haiz. too bad for me.

i want to do everything else, anything else other than studying. clubbing, drinknig parties, shopping, chatting, preparing for my 21st birthday, ok everything else BUT studying.

in a relationship, both has to learn to give and take. if one party is doing all the giving all the time, he/she will get tired one day, really. don't be mistaken, i'm still happily enjoying my honeymoon period, but through this current relationship, i realised how much simplicity can make things work out. he taught me how to give and take, and not let one party keep giving in all the time. maybe i don't love him as much as he loves me now, but like eley said, time changes the structure of a relationship, and i think in time to come, i'll be able to give as much as he gives me.

aahhh..all my random thoughts. i should be studying, for my paper at 1pm tomorrow. damnit. deviants deviants deviants. i'm a deviant.

2:04 AM
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i want an ipod mini!! i want diamonds!! i want alot alot of stuff!! i want a green or purple lacy short skirt!! whee!!

i think i'm mad. the fever burnt my brain. someone help me.

so many wants, so few needs actually. i'm just greedy. i need to work to get my money to buy all these. help!!! i really think i'm just bored. studying for exams is a chore. lethargic, tired, with ongoing fever for one whole week. damnit. thankfully i've got ps to take care of me.

help la, i don't wanna study anymore.

11:11 PM
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it's been a long time since i last fell sick, and this stupid fever has to come at the wrong time, when my exams are like next week. damn. for 3 days this damn fever persisted on and off. sux man, and i keep having these surges of cold sweat. and it feels horrible.

i think last night wasn't a cold night, but i just kept hiding under my blanket, feeling terribly cold. i think it's just me, coz no one else thought last night was cold, everyone else thought it was hot.

still, i thank my boy for sending me all the way back to hall though i was at his place yesterday just to study and print those long overdue notes. i was forced to take panadols at regular intervals. and not to mention tmr's dose of barley water again! haha. i wonder if he feels jealous i'm always out studying with his best friend. haha.

drank soup, feels good when drinking, but broke out into cold sweat after that. help!!

ok anyway people reading this, i'm inviting you to my 21st birthday celebration at pasir ris costa sands on the 11th may which is a wed!! so cfm your attendence with me via sms or msn k? thanks!!

12:39 AM
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i'm going to have my 21st birthday celebration after all!! yay!! my uncle agreed to help me book the costa sands pasir ris chalet!! yippee!! ok he gave me his details but i've yet to book it online. and i though that i wasn't going to have any celebration at all, since my cousin refused to help me book and my bro's gf wasn't eligible to book and i don't have any friend in NIE. but now... yay!! but i'll have to come up with cash for this blardy thing. ok my bro's the first one to die. haha!

i realised i haven't been updating my blog. but hell, i don't really have time for this nowadays. with the upcomnig exams and ps to be busy about, it's time to start writing lesser.

yest ps came my place, and i thought no one else other than my dad was home, turned out, my WHOLE family was home. damnit. the other time i went his place, it was like this too. perhaps we're just unlucky. oh well.

i'm so excited!! about my upcomnig chalet!!hehe. whee!!

2:41 PM
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what a meet-the-parents session.

thankfully it wasn't that awkward. phew. though it came rather unexpectedly. yeah man.

time to fall in love with my books. i'm an unproductive kid.

10:20 PM
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all i can say is, the story went on after 2 years of struggle and tussle. how amazing could that be?

you're so sweet you melt me completely.

looks are deceiving, so please do not get cheated. haha.

6:34 PM
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1st april 2005, the magical day, when everything just seem to fall into places neatly.

the arms around me that brings joy to my life.

12:48 PM
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it's just wrong! everything's wrong! we're going the wrong way for the upteenth time again!

i think i'm just plain stupid, i'm living in a world of delusion, in a world of denial.

why do you still care so much for me, do so many things for me, when we're just friends? why bother to come looking for me all the time? why can't we realise everything's not the same? why?

you said you need time, but can't you just think on your own instead of looking for me all the time? all these time could be spent on you thinking.

if i need to, i might just leave you. one more time. get out of my life.

1:44 AM
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