{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

*loves:

*loathes:
BOREDOM

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results gonna be out at 11am tomorrow. hopefully it's not be that bad. i'm not greedy, just give me all Bs and i'll be grateful enough. really hope i'll make it through this time, given that i studied only at the end of the sem, coz i was busy with IHG in the beginning of the sem and then settling all those issues with ps towards the end. please don't let me screw it up. i really hope and pray.

caught monster-in-law today. it was good. not a bad show and relatively funny. spent the whole day out and i'm damn full. ate so much nonsense.

starting to miss my boy. i'm not going to see him for 2 weeks coz we'll both be busy with work. in the end, i'll have to work on thurs til next wed for the promoter job. i think the brand manager likes me. haha. and when i end work my boy will be busy with work. sobz. but i should be thankful coz i've got work to be busy with. at least life's not that boring the comnig week.

11:32 PM
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congrajulate me coz i'm living off ps now. he's like my sponsorer, paying for me whenever we go out. nah, he's not rich, but he just afraid that i don't have enough money to spend coz my promoter job is only on weekends. that makes me feel pampered, but yet makes me feel so useless at the same time. i'm fully capable of supporting myself, yet he's paying all the time whenever we're out and refusing me whenever i pay him back. i sound contradicting. but yeah, women, i'm a woman. i can't scream at him for doing so, coz he did it out of pure concern for me. right, i guess i think too much. it's women again. we simply love to think.

i'm keeping my fingers crossed. recruit express please call me back! hope the blardy company decides to select my resume. please please please. i don't wish to be living off u again.

11:48 PM
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life's even more boring ever since my dear ps started working. sobz. he told me he'll sponsor our JB shopping trip. really? i doubt so. even if he wants to i won't haha. i don't live off guys.

anyway i think singaporeans are getting more open nowadays. i see more public displays of affections now. we're getting more westernized? haha. saw a young couple locking lips at the bedok interchange. bet they're even younger than me. then saw a middle aged couple locking lips too at the bus stop. hmmmm seems like it's a norm these days. perhaps locking lips is the way to go when you're waiting for the bus.

anyway i'm just bored. sent out a few resumes online just now. so bored and desperate for an office job that i actually did that. bleh.

1:32 AM
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we all have our own expectations of others, but sometimes they might seem unrealistic. everyone behaves differently and we cannot force people to be what we want them to. likewise, i don't force people to conform to my own standards of expectations. accepting people for who they are, but sometimes in the midst of trying to accept all these 'deviants', we get hurt by the process, coz they do not conform to our expectations. what an irony.

i can understand each and everyone of us are made differently, but sometimes, a single sorry doesn't alleviate the pain that i feel. what's done cannot be undone. so let's all live with it.

11:27 PM
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what a tiring day. went over to bt's place for her 21st birthday party today with ps. wt and her boy went too. i got a pair of pretty butterfly earrings from wt!! it's my 4th pair of earrings. haha. but i really like it!! and it's my second pair of butterfly earrings. hee. the party was alright, didn't interact much coz didn't really know the people there. stayed with wt and her boy n ps. wt said ps's shy, coz he didn't really talk much. haha. that's him, quiet around people he doesn't know.

went off with ps to meet his jc friends for dinner. it's not the first time i met his jc friends, but this time, it's ALOT of them. out of 12, there were 6 of them there, and i met a few of them during previous outings with them. so basically i have met almost the whole bunch of them. pretty nice people, funny gang. turned out that sw n nic came and well, they know me, coz of my bro. seems weird how so many people know my bro. all the girls there were shocked when sw said my bro was xj. haha. and the funny part was nic couldn't remember me, after 3 years of vball in dhs and 2 yrs of hi-bye in tjc. and he was stunned when he found out xj's my bro. so weird. and one of the girls actually said something which amused me. she thought i was 4 yrs younger than ps, which obviously isn't true. she got the wrong girl. that 4 years younger than ps girl was last december. obviously she wasn't updated. bet she was like paiseh. but anyway the highlight of the day was me and ps, coz they kept claiming i tamed him. but hey, that's me. i talk LOUDLY. vball girls are seldom soft. i'm sacarstic, but i don't mean it. so too bad my boy. wahaha.

i've realised what he means by he treated his exes badly. gfs like friends.

12:30 AM
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i've got a job! but i'm only starting next thurs. went for the interview yesterday. i'll be worknig as a promoter for eucerin, some clinically tested product. haha. oh well. flexi working hours and finially i can kill time! whee! one month job til 29th june! haha. after that i'll have to start looknig for jobs again. sigh.

meanwhile i should enjoy the last few remaining days of my free days!

4:11 PM
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had a great day at ECP today. haven't cycled for such a long time. felt the cool breeze glide past my face when i cycled and cycled. i guess it's a form of destressing for me. it brought me back alot of memories. how i used to go there, the people whom i went with etc. i used to go with ps 2 yrs back, but today it's a different status altogether. just let the past be bygones. we're starting afresh.

met those 2 boy-crazy girls at tm today. they asked me n ps to help them do survey. i hate the thought of seeing them, coz i still rmb how they used to chase after boys in jc, how much trouble they caused me. yucks. it sux. i never wanna go through it again. and i wonder who told them i'm with ps. just don't feel like telling them anything. such unreal friends, who needs them?

tomorrow i'm starting work for a week as this skincare product promoter. haha. finally something to do. whee!!

12:12 AM
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being jobless really makes one bored. i have to think of activities to do everyday, to ensure that my day is not happily wasted away. thankfully i had something to do today. i went ktv with yiyi today! at least i had something to do, and of coz there were pretty entertaining ah lians opposite our room, who were dancing and shaking their damn butts to the LOUD TECHNO music, and somking like nobody's business. i don't bear any grudges against smokers, but the sign obviously said NO SMOKING right on the door. i bet they failed english. real badly. how difficult could NO SMOKING be? it's pretty readable right? anyway their dress sense made me wanna laugh. BIG cartoons and logos, no not at the front, but at the back, and i saw one of the girls wearing this racerback top with a logo on the back which resembled a dragon. *clap clap* kill me, but i wont ever wear that out. unless u gimme $1000. haha.

ktv session was cheap and good. sang many many songs! sang til 5 and went off to meet ps, coz that poor boy also had nothing to do and was lazing in challenger while waiting for us. haha. yiyi went back for dinner and since poor me had no dinner, ps had to dine with me. caught divergence. not bad. so many hunks!! yay!! and then my day was spent just like that. haha.

at least the end of my day wasn't that bad, given my morning was a bad one, with my mum screaming her head off at everything i do. i swear she's undergoing pms. and her pms's been on for like a few years. i need u ps. only u can curb her. come once n she'll be happy for at least a day. and your place is my refugee camp. i'll run to you when her pms strikes. u can do likewise too. haha. i guess mums are all weird, especially those in late 40s and 50s. ps's mum gave him his allowance even though it's the holidays, something she doesn't do usually. i bet she knows he has to support me now. haha. ok crap. i'm just bored. i need a job. anyone wanna employ me???

11:16 PM
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thanks everyone, for those who turned up. i really appreciate it. those lovely gifts, sweet hugs, warm thoughts. amazing. never did i know i've got so many lovely people who care for me. thanks u lovelies! i had fun yesterday! opening presents, taking photos, crapping with people. so nice!

but i have to say, i know how much mummy loves me! she helped me prepared all my food!! haha. i'm so touched! i love mummy!

but i think the one who deserves the most credit has to be ps. what am i without him. he packed my room for me, ran errands for me, reminded me about organising my chalet stuff, and even searched for my key all over pasir ris park with me when i lost it on the first night. yes, late at night. he made it a success for me. for 3 whole days he spent all his time with me, without any grumbles, and i'm glad we're together. i love u boy.

realised i've got nothing to do. jobless and lazy. haha. save me.

5:28 PM
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i'm in a highly irritable mood. maybe coz of the weather.

haha. bullshit. it isn't obviously.

i can't pack my room, neither are any of the 2 most important boys in my life free to help me move and pack. neither do i have the required stuff to pack them as well. and bloody hell, i have to move out tomorrow.

i'm really irritated.

i realised that i tend to think alot when i'm free. i think about my own expectations. are they too high? unrealistic? do i expect too much? or do i take things for granted? i'm like a distraught princess. why a princess? coz my boy treats me like a princess, but still, i'm not satisfied. something's really wrong with me. i really wish i could live simply again. to have a simple mind and oblivious to everythnig around me. but it seems like, i can't.

i wanna club right now, and i know it's not good that i treat clubbing as a form of destressing. i just wanna club when i'm not in a good mood. i wanna go ktv too! i wanna keep my whole life full of activities so that i won't keep thinking. otherwise, i'm just finding trouble for myself.

3:00 PM
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i'm officially OLD. i'm 21.. awww man...

21st birthdays are like nothing special, perhaps coz i don't have the habit of celebrating birthdays, but it seems like it's a rather disappointing one this year, other than the secret recipe cake loy and jiang bought for me! so damn nice! they had been trying to find me since like yesterday, but oh well, ps was here..

as usual, went phuture on the actual day of being 21. chee bye la. mr norman stepped on my heels and it broke. i had to go back barefooted. couldn't even dance properly, in fact, it was like 1 1/2 hrs more to 3am. explain my 'pissness'. it's MY birthday and you stepped on MY shoe and the straps came off. i can't enjoy myself at all. ANGRY. to top it all off, the heels was my 20th birthday gift by kor.

i only hope that my 21st birthday celebration will be better, at least no broken heels. coz i will be wearing slippers.

still i appreciate all those birthday wishes by all of u guy out there. it's juz so sweeeeeeeeet!!! thanks alot!! i really love all my friends!!!

but still, i'm not feeling too good. ps still didn't buy me a present though he spent like 2 days with me. i tell myself, i should be understanding, coz he just finished his exams and he rushed down to hall to spend time with me and the very next day was my birthday, but you know, i woul really want my bf to make my 21st birthday real special. the sad part was, he didn't even realise he didn't hold my hand the whole night he was out with me. sometimes i just feel, what a dumb bf i have. but well, in a relationship, i have to give an take, i have to say he's really treating me quite well.

i hope my dear boy will really be ok, his dad had a fall and was in hospital just now. haiz. i wish i could run to him straight.

ok i should prepare to sleep..

3:46 AM
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