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Thursday, December 09, 2004

i don't enjoy having so little people coming down for my trainings, coz it's demoralising.
i don't enjoy telling people off, coz i don't like being mean to people, esp friends.
i don't enjoy leading a team, coz each time the team lets me down, it's too painful for me to bear.
i don't enjoy being a pushover, coz i have feelings too.
i don't enjoy my friends giving me attitude, not coz i'm pissed but i feel disapointed.
i don't enjoy everything right now, coz everything seems to be falling apart.

if only all my friends can understand my position,
if only all my friends would stop taking me for granted.
if only all my friends could know i'm juz as fragile as any other girl.

if i broke down during training yesterday, what would have happened?
if i hadn't been so kind to everyone, would things have been different?

everything has just left me disapointed. i'm tired. stop taking me for granted. i'm no pushover. would crying help? NO. no one knows how hurt i am deep inside. i wanna drown all these pain wif alcohol. coz it makes me forget everything. but i know that i'll wake up with a hangover the next day, which will make me miss another training. i need a break too. but will u give it to me?




11:12 PM
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