{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

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BOREDOM

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if only ppl could understand why i'm contemplating going to sheares hall next year, if only things seemed to be as easy as they think. i wish to move to join the vball guys there, but at the same time, i can't bear to give up on the beautiful memories here in TH. it gave me so many beautiful memories, happy or sad whatever. i don't deny that i will still miss this place if i leave but i can't say i'm not terribly tempted by the draws of SH. zh they all are going to be there, and one thing which SH has, TH doesn't have, no, it's not entirely coz of him now, but i seek the fun and enjoyment and the closeness of a whole team which TH can't give me. i've lost the chance to play with gl this year, one thing i really really miss. i miss those days in sec sch and jc where the guys team will come down to help us train and entertain us with silly jokes. i can't find any of these in TH. every sports' guys and girls team just seem so distant. there seems to be no time for interaction, in the midst of our search for the 4th consecutive champion title. champion? it's important, but the most important thing is still the bond which the team shares. i can't feel any of it here, not even in the 4 teams i'm in currently. i'm been seeking that feeling for so long, ever since i left sec sch, the feeling to play as a team, not individually, and there's a high chance for me to seek it back again. though those in SH are my jc team mates, they're those i truely enjoy playing with in my jc days. those asses which made my days miserable are gone far far away. am i wrong to even seek that feeling which i crave for for so long? no one else is here with me in TH. i dread going for trainings which seem to be disastrous all the time. when i'm not happy i can't perform and that sux. i'm not saying that i want to let anyone down, but can i just go ahead and do what i want? i don't have this privilege of ex jc or sec sch mates all coming over, i'm all alone. i just want to break free. i don't enjoy having to play against TH if i have to eventually, but seriously, if i don't have that passion for vball how am i supposed to help TH win? i feel so minute here. ppl expect too much from me and i can't give it to them. it's not i don't love TH, i do, but i love my friends even more, and i love that bonding feeling even more. if only ppl could understand all these.
i told myself, i'm giving this team another chance. if this year, the team still can't bond successfully, i'm leaving, in search of greater heights, to push myself to a higher challenge and most importantly, the chance to play as a team again. hopefully, TH won't let me down this time round.

2:17 PM
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