{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

*loves:

*loathes:
BOREDOM

sisi
sheer
xying
bik
cheryo
jocie
SGN

 

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it's the time of the night when i start missing him all over again. i've come to this realisation how much he meant to me, how much his words could hurt me. the song which i first sang to him is still playing on my pc repeated on repeat mode. everything and anything about him just springs to my mind right now. i just can't forget him. my weakest link seems to be being unable to let of the past. i can't let go of him.
i finally mustered up the courage to forward him an sms last night. he replied "nite.." i decided to try another shot at sending him another sms " how have u been?" he replied "good i guess..can't get any worse.." that pricked my heart. i realised silver drops were falling onto my cheeks. i guess he still blames me. i decided to continue smsing him til finally he told me he wanted to sleep. it was just casual chat. i still didn't get the courage to ask him if he hates me. i dunno if he wants to see me ever again, but i'm hoping for new year to come, so we can have another gathering at zh's place again. that will be my next chance to see him again.
i really want another chance, to make it up to him. if there's one thing i ever regret, it's letting him down. will he ever forgive me? i won't blame him even if he does. i want to be the one who understands him the most again.
zh and rb kept pestering me to move to SH dat night. wj didn't say anything, coz i think he knows since wj's his best friend. if one day i ever move to SH, it'll be partly coz of him i guess. to get the chance to see him and make it up to him. though he's not staying in hall but i know he goes there often to look them up. i'm really thinking if i should move. it's simply torturous.

11:37 PM
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