{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

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BOREDOM

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i realised i shouldn't sleep after consuming such a sinfully oily fish burger. i'll just keep growing FATTER and turn into a FATchic. i'm FAT already, so i should STOP getting fatter. i want to look pretty and slim, not fat and ugly.

the friendly with EH today was much better than the first time. a much better performance was put up by all the players, but still, we could have done better. the reserves did a pretty good job, but the main team could have done even better, given our years of experience. i guess we still have more to work on. but i really felt damn bad, coz the second set was supposed to be both side main team playing, but it turned out that eddie refused to listen to me and put all the reserves in. it's not a matter of whether i want the reserves to play, but i had already agreed with jerlyn that 1st 3 sets were for the main team, and remaining time we could sub players. it's like a feeling of having betrayed my friend? get it? but stil i must applaud my girls for the splendid play today. it feels good, to see those whom didn't know how to play, to pick it up within 1 month, and be so confident of themselves. maybe i've accomplished my duty as a captain, to teach them, guide them, and make them more confident. i just wish for the team be be stronger.

i feel pressured, as the competition draws near. i know it's not going to be an easy fight, with the standard of my players falling and falling.....and steph sprained her ankle. i can understand her anger with herself, but who could have expected it? i was angry too, coz i need her to play but it was just for a little while. guess it was just coz i was too paraniod. i really fear the gold medal would be so out of reach, coz after all, i think i'm a jinx. i can't seem to get the gold though it was ALWAYS within reach. but well, i guess captains all worry about the unnecessary. i can't stand this pressure to excel, i dont' want to be a puppet anymore. i get angry on court but i still have to control, coz i still have to lead. i have to suppress all my feelings and spur them on, though i'm like feeling.....down.

spent some time talking to hy and ht after training. we just sat at e1 and chatted. these 2 girls are real lovely. cute and innocent. i feel like a kid when i talk to them, it's like returning to innocence. maybe vballers can really understand each other more. my best friend happened to pass by and joined us for the chat. seems like vballers can really talk and talk. and well, he was kind enough to help me ref the friendly. well, he seems just prefectly fine now, other than that inflated ego of his which has never retreated. a vballers' chat indeed. a whoping 2 hrs was spent just sitting at e1 and chatting. yeah, but i loved it.

by chance i've found a new 'tu di'! he screams 'shi fu!' each time he sees me. how heartwarming....

3:07 AM
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