{Me}

boredchic
22 years on earth

*loves:

*loathes:
BOREDOM

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sheer
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SGN

 

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And we said goodbye to her for the last time.

The sight of the tubes penetrating her whole body hurts me so. I never expected that it will be the last time we see her breathe.I knew she will leave me one day, but not so soon. She promised me that we will go buy new clothes, to prepare for my wedding. I wished so much to be able to serve her tea on that day. She was my precious, my beloved, grandma.

The sight that unfolded before me was unbearable. I went with grandpa, he kept pleading with her not to go so soon. That was the first time I saw him cry his heart out. It showed how much he loved her. Her eyes were closed, but she could hear us. Her tears fell as she heard him weep. There was nothing much we could do, but to hope and pray that she will wake up once again. From noon, we waited for hours, talking to her hoping that the cruel fact will not happen. But it did. 5.17pm, 18 Feb 2010, she left us.

I will always remember her for feeding and bathing me when I was young, for giving me shelter when I ran away from home, for standing on my side when my mum went mad, for loving me the way that I am.

I witnessed the love between them, which has withstood the test of time. With that,I will carry on the duty, to love and give grandpa what he deserves, and wishes for.

Regrets, will nevertheless remain, how I didn't buy the things she asked me to buy, how we refused to bring her back for reunion dinner this year (though it was a virtually impossible task), how I missed her talking to me for the last time.

I love u grandma, may u seek eternal peace wherever you are.

2:25 AM
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